11/12/2010

He's just not that into you

Here's to all the girls who used to be his number one. The ones who waited for him to call, only to check the caller ID the next morning & be disappointed. The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, & moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened. Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going. The ones who listened to him saying I only want to be your friend. One day, and the next, kissing him again.Here's to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change.We listened to our friends telling us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance.We went through the great stage again with no fights all over again. We started this out thinking , it would be just friends, but ended up falling in love with him again. We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming. This is for us. Here's to the tears cried and dried all over again. We wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldnt possible call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us. We learned to settle for someone who didn?t treat us the way we should be treated. Here's for the ones who did their hair and makeup & put on their nicest clothes, only to hear him say that he couldn't see u tonight. The ones who never believed it when people told us there was someone else. We just couldn't believe that he could do this to us again. This is for those great girls who loved him more than words can say, & took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn't bear to look back on their lives one day & wonder, what if? This is for the ones that held on to something that was never there to begin with. This is for us girls, who somehow managed to get him to forget about her, & get him to tell us that he was in love with us again, only to have him telling us three weeks later that things were going too fast, he needs time.Here's to girls who couldn't cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt. This is for the ones who couldn't bear to even tell their mom what was going on, fear for an:  I told u so.. The ones that could just tell that they had made a mistake ever allowing him into their hearts & their dreams again. We knew that we deserved better the entire time, that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see and see you whenever he got the chance, one that would really care. We just wanted the one that we loved. Here's for the ones that finally realized that he never gave a crap about them. Here's for the time that he broke your heart again. This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, & the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment. Here's for us girls who finally realized we deserved better. This is for these confusing days, when you miss him & want nothing more that to hear his voice, or feel his arms around you waist. Stay strong and remember that relationships are like broken glass : sometimes it's better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together & get hurt. Remember the times you cried & how long it took to even be able to look at another gut like that. When your song comes on the radio, turn the station. When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made & tries calling, turn your phone off. When he tries coming to your house, don't answer the door. Think of the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation & the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the crap he was. Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night & how it felt to your stomach when you saw it wasn't him. One day you'' ll find a guy who's worth all the tears, but he won't make you cry. You may think that you'll never care about someone like you did that guy you always ran back to, but you will. It's going to hurt like crap, & it's going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal. This is for those girls who fell back in love with their ex, only to get all over again.
 
But live girls, have some fun, you'll be fine

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