deep in your heart

People have scars. In all sorts of unexpected places. Just like secret road maps of their personal histories. Diagrams of all their old wound. Most of our wounds heal, leaving nothing behind but a scar. But some of them don't. Some wounds we carry with us everywhere and though the cut's long gone, the pain still lingers.


why is this so accurate?


AQUARIUS nov., 25, 2011 You may be lost in the past right now, Aquarius. Have you been fantasizing about an old lover or perhaps an old moment of glory? If so, enjoy your fantasies, but know that those times are gone and you need to live in the here and now. It's fine to reminisce and allow your mind to wander to memorable moments of times when you felt happy and fulfilled. But don't spend more time in your memories than you do in the present. Take whatever lessons you can, and then get back in your time machine to today. Apply what you learned, and make now the best time of your life.


Before you walk into my life

You need to know something about me. You need to know that I'm a very insecure person. Im not perfect. I find it hard to trust people now. I've made mistakes in the past and I've learned to live with them. I've learned to accept people for who they really are. I miss the people that I houldn't even think about anymore. I've liked, I've loved, I've been hurt. I have hurt people. I'm not perfect. But hey, this is me. And me before you walk into my life, you need to know these things. Because, if you walk into my life, you can't walk out of my life when things are getting hard. Just like all the other people did.


we're friends, we're together, we're hurting each other, we're fighting, we're alone again.


Sometimes, I get jealous thinking that someone else
could make you happier than I could
I guess it's my insecurities acting up
because I know Im not the prettiest, smartest,
or most fun and exciting
but, I do know that no matter
how hard and long you look
you'll never find somebody that loves you like I do 


I'll go sit on the floor wearing your clothes, all that I know is
I don't know how to be something you miss



Not ready

I'm not sure when we'll find what works, you are my soulmate, you know what to say when I feel down. You want to see me happy. But what makes me happy is you. And when we are together it feels like there are no worries at all. Im afraid you won't ever take a chance on me. I know I need to tell you goodbye. Because every time I make the decision to be your friend, I fall harder. I can’t truly move on until I cut you out of my life completely. This is something I have to do for me, in order to love myself again, and someone else. But at this time I'm not ready to let you go. So how can we still be close and not get hurt. I hope we get there. 


I know you love me, but I know you haven't made it to that place- that kind of love, yet.

It is a risk to love.
What if it doesn't work out?
Ah, but what if it does?
-Peter McWilliams


I don't chase after anyone so if you wanna walk out of my life 
Then I'll hold the fucking door open for you


Because you are everything to me 

Never make someone a priority if they only consider you an option 'NaomiAyele